Eating Disorders are not simple disturbances in eating. They can feel like a high speed locomotive driving you to compulsive eating or non-eating behavior that has nothing to do with physical hunger, satisfaction or logic. Eating disorders are a powerful and immediate strategy for coping with emotions and sensations deemed unsafe or unbearable, initially by a younger you. Aloneness with these emotions and experiences caused you to resort to other strategies to protect your psychic survival. Distraction, control, comfort through eating or not eating, became a deeply grooved ritual for how you related to yourself, your feelings, relationships and food. Unfortunately, these strategies, at first a relief from internal pressure and overwhelm, become bigger than their original purpose and overwhelm your life, affect your relationships and cause you bodily harm. Instead of that first experience of relief at having found a way to feel “better,” secrets and shame entrap you in an endless cycle of self-harm and broken self-esteem. The eating disorder becomes a prison.
Healing begins by facing that from which you run. With the guidance of a skilled and caring therapist, facing, feeling and dealing with experiences and their emotions, (past and present) will begin to free you from the obsession with food. This time, not alone in this journey, the therapist both witnesses and accompanies you as you re-learn to feel, deal and eat.